On our next adoption

We have been looking into two other agencies to sign up with in addition to Project Cuddle and our own agency that places kids from the foster care system. Both agencies are small and located in our home state... they only do a few adoptions a year (each do about 6 a year) but I am hoping that between the three we are on with that something will happen. I have the applications filled out - just gotta mail them in this week. The fact that we are pretty open - open to race & gender alone should make a placement quicker - but thats not always the case. I would think that a placement in our home state would make things SO much easier - but I also know that I would go through all the stress and inconvienece of an out of state adoption to have my beautiful Kinsey in a heart beat. Since when is life suposed to be easy and stress free? :) Kinsey's adoption and everything surrounding how it went was pretty much perfect. I am not counting on the next one to go as smoothly but it would be nice :) Things never go the way you want anyway, no matter how close to home they are. I have no clue the direction God is gonna take us and I can't possibly guess. I play out scenarios in my head of when and where but I know it will be nothing like I imagine... and I think that is a good thing :) We keep trying to figure out if Kyle will stay home with the girls, if all four of us will go, if we will leave the girls with my parents... but really we can't know what to do until we get the call and the situations surrounding it. As far as our budget we are applying for grants and trying not to worry. We know God can provide the funds needed - and I just assume he will provide through grants... but what if he doesn't? Its a little harder to trust when he doesn't provide the way you want him to. I don't know.. just rambling a bit. I think adopting the second time around is alot easier than the first... at least I seem to have more patience this time. I am content where God has me and who he has entrusted to me. I am excited about the future but I am excited about the present too. I'll keep ya updated!